God what I wouldn't give to feel whole again
Or even human
I don't sleep
Food kills me when it enters my body
I'm a fucking walking zombie
I need to focus what little energy I have
on something positive
Like working out
but that takes motivation.
And I don't even have the motivation to get out of bed
...I need to get high...
Jared is a fucking nightmare.
He comes in on Friday
Our converstation was a little less than amusing
He should probably disappear... again
Get out of my mind.
Or what's left of it
I'm probably losing it
Definetly losing it
If I believed in God, I'd probably pray for myself.